This thought of "Why Am I so Obsessed with the Past?" has crossed my mind again recently. I was preparing to watch another episode of "Corrector Yui". It's a really cool magical girl anime that has a heavy theme of computers. It's interesting that the protagonist is blonde, as it reminds me of Chobits ever so slightly.
I'm going to be extremely busy starting June, so blog updates may slow down. I was considering writing "a day in the life" post for me, but it's difficult for me to be consistently productive, especially when my family randomly asks me to do things for them while I'm in a flow state, no matter what I'm doing.
I think the opening song of Corrector Yui makes me think very deeply about this topic.
Why do I want to return to the past so much? I've felt this way ever since I was a child, for as long as I can remember. I'm not like everyone else in the sense that I label something "old" and kick it away for more modern things. I feel fascinated by the 90's and 2000's on a daily basis. I'm not afraid to correct and factcheck things as well.. I feel a little tired because I always have a dull, throbbing pain in my heart when it comes to things in the past. I want to live there.. and everything seemed so beautiful then, too. Now we have mundane days that we definitely earned, but nothing is as stimulating as things from the past, so I'll definitely keep this blog alive for some time. I can only imagine an ending when I'm done with watching all of my Heisei era animes, and even then, there's so much wonderful merchandise to collect. Ah...
Well, this post is titled "Corrector Yui" so I'm going to watch another episode of the anime and come back here.
I just finished watching the third episode of the first season. It's nice to watch anime in general, but especially older ones. The little musical motifs feel relaxing at times, and the exhilarating parts does remind me of the times where I played HHPAY: Kaznapped on my DS lite through the GBA port - time is slipping through my fingers ;u;
I loved the graphics for that game. I wonder what else I should do for today? Especially because I have no homework often and everything..
I tried to sing Tohhikoh (Short Vers.)
May 7 | 15:58
I hope that you will all like it. Apologies for the delay, life has been busy.
My Pop n' Music Original Character
May 2 | 9:25
Howdy everyone, how do you do?
So I just would like to clarify that this character was not exclusively made for pop n' music, but I imagined it would be really nice and cool to see her as a character in the game.
Her name's Kotohime. Bl**d stains are converted into ink stains for some reason..
I guess I was inspired a bit by Elfen Lied too.
She can kill people via telekinesis if she feels even the slightest annoyance towards them, but she's also a child prodigy of everything she attempts.
For unknown reasons, her parents sent her to a lab where she now resides in.
The scientists are like babysitters, or stressed out parents how to entertain this problem child so she won't kill anymore people.
I think she's pretty neat. Maybe she might corrupt the game's save file if you lose to her.
Media Discourse: Is a lack of representation in fictional media really that much of a big deal?
13:04
UPDATE: I was able to talk to a friend about this topic and I understand the value of representation a bit more now. Please put your pitchforks down
I know that title was very wordy, but I've been meaning to discuss this topic for some time.
A few years ago, back when I actually used X (Twitter), I saw someone's tweet about how they couldn't really engage in their favorite video game as deeply as they wanted to just because there was a lack of skin tone representation for them.
I never really knew this was something that preoccupied fellow gamers' minds. I can't remember if I replied to it or not, but to this day, that post has stuck with me.
I honestly believe that people who push for more customization options in the video games they play, that bring no merit or logical improvement to the fictional world they immerse in (for example, higher stats in a RPG game) want to pressure the people that make the games to cater to them and people like them only so it can have more of a outreach or something similar.. kind of like how people tried (and still attempt to) pay artists in "attention".
I also feel like if you are too preoccupied about your character's appearance and not focusing on the story and what you can actually do in the game you brought, you're approaching it from a wrong angle. I wonder what fuels people's obsession to see a mirror of theirselves in a world that is not like their reality. It's different if it was a fashion-oriented game or something, not a story-driven game.
To be fair, I have tried to give this mindset the benefit of the doubt by feeling frustrated that in my favorite slice-of-life and magical girl anime, there are hardly any dark-skin major girl characters that actually have a role I identify with. Having a major dark-skin girl in the story is not enough for me, it just communicates to me, [if you're a fan of that approach only], that you just like the spotlight. It's how they are described and characterized in the story that really pushes me to consider if it's worth my time or not.
I have seen stories where there are major Black magical girls and they were honestly really underwhelming for me. I don't see artists' pages as a place to order an exact and succinct story for me to appease me and my possible identity problems.
I think a lot of people are honestly very lazy, because if they weren't, they would stop expecting people to appease them in their personal works. In other words, I wish people can stop complaining so much about things that don't effect the logical world of the game or series they claim to love so much, and actually be the change they want to see in the world. I get it, the internet's the place to complain or whatever, but I just can't buy into this conversation that "lack of representation in video games is always bad" all the time.
Sure, some artists and professionals might be strangely picky or judgmental within their reasonings to not incorporate certain identities in their story, but that's a whole another conversation for another time.
I wish I can talk to someone who believes strongly in representation in "cozy" games like Animal Crossing pre-New Horizons (the latest mainstream game in the franchise) for instance so I can understand the importance of it, and not just be a people pleaser when creating stories for the world to consume.
I guess that's it. I am curious to hear any thoughts on this. Thanks for reading.
Now back to your daily programming of Heisei Retro stuff o-o
Final post of the month
April 30 | 15:08
Hi.
Still working on that youtube video.. and I will introduce my pop n music character when I'm ready.
I checked the votes of the poll today and I see that the winning selection was "Tohhikoh" by tohko!! Second place was Wonder Trip Lover by Yukiko Okada, and only one person voted for me to sing "DokkiDoki! Love Mail". Expect a new video of my singing in the next few days !!
The reason why I placed that song in the selection was because I found tohko to be a highly underrated artist that radiates peace and understanding, while shedding light on difficult themes like loneliness gently. I want to make her more known somehow, so I hope that my cover can also encourage you to check out the original song as well.
Thank you for your time.
Hi
April 25 | 7:07
I ended up skipping a day in blogging. Sorry if you guys missed me! I'm not sure if I can attempt to blog on a daily basis, because the last time I tried to do such a thing, I felt like I was on the verge of burning out.
I finally feel as though I'm progressing in my Japanese journey by transcribing songs into romaji and hopefully English. Although it does sting a bit to see that someone else has already done some of the songs I wanted to do, my attempt wouldn't hurt to exist as well.
I left off in my notes by studying N5 vocabulary. I wish I can get faster at writing sentences in Japanese, though, so I'll work on making that a reality.
I didn't forget about my OC and the playlist I mentioned in the previous posts. Expect an update on that in the next few days.
I'm going to check my poll results on April 30th!!
Thanks everyone for your support so far on my website.
I was thinking of making a youtube video of all the lost media I know of, for instance, the original Ojamajo Doremi mangas are nowhere to be found anywhere. This has been the case I feel since 2019. I really adored how unpolished the art style looked back then compared to it's more solid appearance in later years. Now that would be fun to translate..
I did see someone scanned it and translate it in Italian a long time ago - but I would only be able to machine translate it to English because I don't know any Italian and I'm not planning to learn that language anytime soon.
Dang it, one of the most obscure Hello Project songs I know has an English translation already, so I'm going to try and make a Youtube video of it now.
I have a obsession with being the first in everything I do, so... ;-;!
Am I really cut out to be a net idol
April 23 | 3:57
Unwritten rule of Venus #001: Never show doubt of yourself openly..
yet I'm still doing it O_O
I'm not sure if I can fully commit to being a net idol. I do a lot of things that happen to truly preoccupy me, which leads to a more faceted and detailed identity of mine. (Not humble bragging at all and this is not sarcasm this is just how the cookie crumbles)
For me there's drawing, making music, writing, collecting and of course, coding such projects such as this website! Those are just some of my hobbies. I REALLY DON'T LIKE WRITING A GIANT INTRODUCTION ABOUT MYSELF.. even though I make everyone who joins my Showa-Heisei Wonderland introduce theirselves so we can see if we can all get along ^^; lol
If I had to introduce myself as a net idol... I guess this site already describes me quite well. 0.0
Maybe I would be too busy to be a net idol, but I do find myself singing whenever I do have a large pool of free-time, so it wouldn't hurt to at least share with you guys some of my singing skills.
I admit that I've never been a part of a singing class for some reason, even though my family always asked me to sing for them. I guess I feel like I need them after someone I knew in-person called my singing terrible (and the original song I was covering "terrible" too) π
Well I guess that's it.
Thanks for reading my compulsory writing.
Bye now o.0
My Long-term Obsession with TV Part 1
19:58
When I was younger, I was obsessed with searching up the TV channels I frequented at the time and putting a random year in the 2000s next to it, lol.
I felt like I discovered a whole another new world that was forgotten by society, and exists in peak obscurity and became a well-known secret only to those who's hearts were open to being imprinted with the memory of it. o3o
I know that was wordy but my health is not the best.. I really wasn't expecting to spend a lot of money on my piano, please be patient with me
m( _ _ )m
Anyways, I wanted to share with you this.
I might share a playlist of my favorite bumpers from the various search terms I used back in the fun yet productive summers of 2015-2018 seeing these memories of the past.
Thanks for reading my thoughts!
I need to rest for a long time now.
Oyasuminasai
Rainbow Pinku
5:04
Rainbow Pinku
This time shipping Skinned me Alive and Wore me as Bunny Slippers
April 22 | 7:11
I might have to be eating ice water soup for the rest of April.
I said "this time" because I'm still living in it! T u T
I had to pay a significant amount of shipping for not only my cute sanrio piano but the piano book I got with it too!
Eh... oh well.
It's a start of a new era.
[Breaking] Replica toy of MiniMoni cell-phone
19:53
Even if I'm the only living American in the 2020's decade who still actively listens to Minimoni almost daily, I'm still excited to share with you all this news.
With how devilish the proxy service has been acting, unsure if I can get this in a timely manner. It's pretty neat though ~
Those times Black Culture was referenced in Asian Culture (And vice-versa)
April 21 | 1:20
I am a half Black person. If you don't like that fact, you are free to leave the premises. πβ‘οΈπͺ
I've always been a fan of Asian music ever since I was in elementary school, admittedly thanks to Cartoon Network's Hi Hi PUFFY AmiYumi and Nintendo tracks mainly produced by Tsunku (Thanks, Rhythm Heaven). I sense that I've matured to such a great amount that I was able to see how that show didn't hold up to the test of time, at all. The only thing it was good for was being a vehicle to introduce open-minded people to Japanese music.
My immersement of Asian music is rather intense, as I listen to various artists on a daily basis for years. I had a playlist of just Japanese songs that was nearly over 21 hours once.. but anyways,
here are some times I noticed Black culture was referenced and maybe even celebrated in Asian songs, and vice versa.
Three Degrees - When Will I See You Again?
Three Degrees is an African-American girl group that had a revolving cast of members that was founded in 1963. Their biggest hit, "When Will I See You Again" along with other songs were performed live in Japan in a 1986 tour. They also recorded a live album in 1975.
In my opinion, this is groundbreaking for it's time and it shows the beautiful depth of cross-cultural appreciation. I'm happy this exists.
Aaliyah - Rock the boat x XG - Rock the Boat
"Rock the Boat" was Aaliyah's final song with a music video before her untimely death in 2001.
XG referenced the main chorus of the song along with Aaliyah herself in their lyrics. XG is considered a "global" group rather than exclusively K-pop or J-pop.
In my opinion, I find it cool and tactful. Niceπ
Black Biscuits
Black Biscuits was a short-lived J-pop group made to rival "Pocket Biscuits". It was set to permanently disband if they couldn't surpass their rivals in sales, which happened on their third single despite the massive success of their first and second one.
They were able to reunite in recent years, such as in 2023.
I really have no idea how I discovered their music, but I do remember watching the "Bye-Bye" music video for the first time, and being obsessed - everything looked peak Y2K.
Everything about their music production is so simple, yet catchy and enjoyable - they were perfect earworms in my opinion. It's nice to see Vivian's smile as she performs too, it gives off a sense that she deeply enjoyed what she had done.
It seems like there is a subtle influence of Black culture onto this group's presence, especially with Vivian's hairstyles. I would mention other references of J-pop stars wearing Black hairstyles but this would be quite a long list, and I'm trying to capture more prominent influences other than just their appearance.
What's interesting is this music video which shows Black children staying up to watch their live performance, lol. I don't think it's offensive, it's cool. They also have some Black performers with them on their set too.
It seems that they sang in both Chinese and Japanese, with casual English in the mix.
The music video "Timing" appeared to be recorded in New York City too, which is interesting because another music video I know of, "Love and Joy" by Yuki Kimura was also recorded there !! PUFFY AmiYumi went to NYC too.. what a historic place, huh?
I might be missing some more, but these are the only ones that I'm heavily aware of. A bit different from what I usually write, especially when I reference a song from the Reiwa era but it's fine. It reminds me the world isn't entirely full of hate, even if these songs are a bit "aged". Art is art, and it won't lose its definition no matter how old it is. Thanks for reading this.
What I did today
19:15
I got an orange tinted drink that reminded me of Sailor Venus. I imagined as if I was inside a Sailor Moon pop-up shop (if only lol); it was flavored Mango Lemonade ^p^
I listened to the entire soundtrack of the original pop n' music game that was released in arcades, dreamcast and playstation. I've been meaning to listen to these musical pieces for a while. Each track truly feels like a variating slice of life from each culture you can imagine, with a Japanese backdrop. I like how they made the music various genres, it felt like Rhythm Tengoku's grandparent in terms of it's musical expression. I also really wanted to collect all the games when I was in high school, so I hope I can make this dream come true soon haha @ - @
I actually have a original character that I'm still working on. I was originally going to make her a oc for a anime I watched a while back but now I believe that I should make her a pop n' music OC, maybe! I'll get back to you all on this later ^^
I may listen to more of the game series' OST tomorrow. I'm exhausted today as I walked over 7,000 steps.
I'm still Very Pre-occupied
April 20 | 14:21
Hi how are you?
I'm fine thank you
I made a lot of updates to my website today! I added a poll for what song you guys want me to sing (they're all Japanese songs but you can request through Discord or the chatbox for other choices), a site button, a navbar, a [Japanese] calendar, a music player and I even joined a webring!
I also illustrated a "thank you" card for anyone who will write comments to me!
Thank you to the first person who commented on the chatbox! I really do love hearing about all of your guys' reactions~
Well, I think I'm going to take a break now, I've been working on this on and off since 5am, lol.
I drew some concept art!
April 19 | 1:45
I drew some concept art for my story. You're supposed to be listening to "Fear" by Annie Yi to understand the general vibe of the image.
I like how it turned out. If you would like to discuss this piece of art with me, you can try communicating in the chatbox ->
or on Discord. My username is venushimekawa. If you waste my time I won't waste a second blocking you.
Very Pre-occupied
10:20
Hi
Even though I got a concept for a new story along with new characters, that can't be my first priority unfortunately.
I really want to continue some of the anime I've been wanting to watch from the Heisei era. Is it just me or does almost every anime from the Reiwa era have the same exact color palettes so far unless it's an absolutely hyper-serious rated mature show?
Anyways, one of the shows I really want to finish watching is Ojamajo Doremi. I've procrastinated on completing it for too long, and I even have the magical girl tool from the first season as a mini keychain. Yay..
Too bad I have a 4-hour class today so I can't devote all of my time today to watching just that T u T
But I'll be free for the next 20 hours.
I could review the show or at least certain seasons once I complete it on here. I still need to finish PGSM, I just felt kinda overwhelmed around Episode 20.
Well bye for now everyone.
Is Life Meaningless or am I just Depressed?
18:19
It's been a few hours since that class of mine ended. Let's just say it barely kept my attention because not only was my professor 15 minutes late, but he remained off-topic for a notable amount of time, so much so that my brain drifted somewhere else to a far-away land. @ _ @
I tried talking to other people on Discord but I accidentally made a moderator annoyed at me, and now I too feel annoyed because I was just trying to make conversation with new people other than the people in my daily orbit.
I'm worried I might be a bit too addicted to my lifestyle of Heisei living with a Showa flair. Most of my day consists of listening to music from the Showa era, and I admit I have multiple schedules only full of ideals. I guess I'm admitting this out loud and publicly to myself and to my supporters so that I can get a better perspective of everything. I am always looking for newer ways to improve my life.
I have yet to finish the Codename Sailor V manga, but it feels strange to pressure myself when it comes to leisure activities, unless I really want to achieve something, like the highest ranks in Splatoon or something.. I sense if I pressure myself right now, it won't be any fun and it will just cause more additional stress.
Maybe I can draw a collage of my favorite Heisei superstars.
Note: I am not autistic (I have to write this because many people in the past have asked me if I was, and pushed a lot of boundaries by declaring I must be autistic just because I have "Strange" hyperfixations..).
Oh, but I still need to study enough Japanese for the day.. I need to organize myself better even though I already have two schedules for daily living when I'm not at college.
I'm going to try and make my life a bit more bearable. @ _ @
It's important to learn how to get things done even if you don't really feel motivated, because the world would've stopped spinning on it's axis if we only worked if we were motivated. It also keeps us alive, too. Welp, I'm returning to trying to improve my life once again. Thanks for reading my plea. 0.o
The theme song of my website?!
April 18th | 7:45
I should probably add a music playlist for you guys to listen to while you read my blog posts!
The launch of my Plushtubing Career?!
April 17th | 04:58
(Don't ask why I'm awake at this time.)
Last night, I met someone new through the Neocities discord. They encouraged me to make a silly video with my plushies and figurines, so I did just that.
It is a little time consuming to make a video like this, although to be fair, my video only took 11 minutes to make. It's fun to make videos like this, although I wouldn't make it my primary source of content!
I appreciate their encouragement.
Now, if only I can find my Sailor Venus figurine I unfortunately misplaced in the middle of all of this plushie chaos.. x(
Memories with Disney Channel
12:14
As shared on my Pikidiary, I keep replaying this video for some reason!
As one person said in the comments, it's highly therapeutic to listen to!
I suddenly remembered this jumbo Disney princess pencil I used to have when I was a child, lol.
Why and how did I own this? X)
I also had Hannah Montana pens too.
Heisei Retro in Japanese News
13:48
Everyone is Vapid
14:02
Outside of this wonderful community on the internet (Neocities), I can't help but stomach the feeling that everyone around me is so vapid, especially because I live in one of the most largest cities in the world. It seems that mediocrity gets praised in waves, from social media to the news, because everyone is doing the bare minimum of whatever they committed to.
The decision I made when my age turned double digits to maintain a past-oriented lifestyle seemed to be a smart time investment.
I don't want to devote my time to being a "hater", but I just feel so disappointed and drained whenever I force myself to listen to the latest artists, and I feel really deeply annoyed whenever they pop up on my feed. I make music too sometimes, as I am currently studying music theory.
The premise of so many songs nowadays, especially in my "niche" make me feel nauseous.. if they aren't talking about explicit things and actions, it's a illusion of something beautiful. Art is often the reflection of the soul of their creators..
I would name the artists that I despise so much on here, but I want my site to be a safe zone for things that make me happy..
I honestly feel like this artist that I have in mind as I write this is suffering an identity crisis at all times, she can't decide what her aesthetic is nor what her primary target audience is.
I really dislike her music because it's perfect for trendsetters who don't understand what they are grasping in order to make the most outreach in terms of popularity. It feels very manufactured and disingenuous, with lack of passion.
I can only describe her music as psuedo-nostalgic, vaguely trying to represent a era she's trying to represent in her work but she never cared for it when it was actually happening, so it's a representation of a blurry memory. Quite literally.
I really am trying my best to listen to one of her tracks again so I can write this accurately but I just can't listen to her music..
Call me a hater, hipster, whatever you want but surprise - people have opinions on the internet.
Someone did tell me that I should create to what I want to see in the world and I'm definitely heavily considering that, because the world has really downgraded over the past 20 years. It's really sad how people are okay with passionless husks echoing throughout venues. I just listen to a few handful of seconds of this music and think "how did this become mainstream?"
I guess this describes how so many people want to be real, but they can't, they were standing in their way the entire time.
That's it.
A update post!
April 16, 2026 | 07:56
Hello everybunny. I've returned.
My mission on the internet is to make things from the Heisei Retro era of Japan more accessible to English-speaking audiences, because I've learnt a lot of valuable life lessons from these shows that I honestly haven't learnt anywhere else. A lot of the media can be enjoyed by all ages as well. I hope to strengthen my Japanese skills so I can continue to deeply immerse myself in this media and help this localization journey, even if it feels like no one really appreciates, or takes resources without saying "thank you" (that was my experience as a archiver).
It's a gift that keeps giving from me, that I have to continue without expecting any "thanks", and I'll have to be okay with that.
I wanted to tell you guys what I've been up to.
I brought a keyboard piano with an adorable design, created by Sanrio. Here's what it looks like~
What do you think? Nice, right?
There were only a handful of other designs that I could've chosen, and there was even a few Jewelpet ones that had some minor functionality errors. I wanted to go with this one because not only does it have the features that I need, the listing I saw didn't have any errors as far as I was informed.
Even though I love Jewelpet, I admit that there are other Sanrio characters I love too, and I could get to know Bonbonribbon as well. :^)
To prepare for the arrival of my keyboard, I've been studying piano with my family's old keyboard to familiarize myself with sheet music. I don't believe I will be taking lessons anytime soon, because I deeply feel that from within, when I do take in-person lessons with something I'm deeply passionate about, even though I do impress my teacher(s), I find myself not learning much and it affirms my thoughts to continue being a solo learner, if that makes any sense ~
I wanted to get my own personal keyboard because not only does it have an adorable design, I can see it as a beginner keyboard for someone like myself and it comes with a microphone as well, so I'm really excited to make it's acquaintance! π«‘
I've been devoting any trace of free time that I have to learning more about sheet music, hence why I've been silent as a mouse on here. I haven't received any feedback on my blog yet, so I would appreciate if you could share your thoughts with me.
Thank you for reading this!
I won't be going anywhere, promise.
Love, Venus
I wish that there was more I can do...
11:01
Ever since I was a small child, I've always been fixated on things from the past. I even enjoyed things from the 50s-70's. After that, I found myself appreciating things from the Showa era of Japan (1926 - 1989), although I admired media from the 1960s-1989.
I am American though. I admit that even though "early 2000's media" is considered Y2K, I hate using that term due to a lot of oversaturation within that label and people who are trying to emulate that "vibe" mislabelling their work as "genuine Y2K media". It's honestly a little irritating and makes archivers' jobs more difficult.
That's not the reason why I started writing this though.
There's a lot of fascinating lost media that can connect the gap between Japanese and English-speaking audiences together for Heisei era shows. For instance, Jetix's "Made in Japan-athon".
I feel frustrated because they mention so many iconic Japanese brands and even mascots such as Nakamura-kun of Angel Blue and other characters in this highly educational documentary for people of all ages to watch in the 2000's in America. I guess it's painfully lost media because this was during a time where Western attitudes towards Japanese things were a bit close-minded and disinterested in what Japan had to offer, despite the big boom of technological advancements. I guess, close ears can't hear. Sure, our attitudes towards Japanese things have definitely broadened over the past few decades but it still makes me sad that something as valuable as this to the Heisei Retro community is lost media.
It feels like no one really cares about this, too... except me. I'm glad I do have this hyperfixation on Heisei Retro media, therefore I won't give up. But,
I wish there was more I can do.
Alone
11:46
I might be overthinking this, but I'm not too sure, just like with many things in my life nowadays.
I feel stressed when I look back on how my favorite (American) franchises are doing now, which is probably why I retreated into Japanese media.. I really do enjoy shoujo shows from the 70's-2010's the most.
For instance, I despise Teen Titans Go. I don't understand how anyone can enjoy that infantilization of a well-thought out show that aired the previous decade, and actually defend it's tomfoolery as valid compared to how things used to be. People really do see children's entertainment as a joke in America nowadays and it is REALLY sad to see.
It feels like during this era of entertainment, even in Japan, people are repeating a formula they've learnt over the past few decades only because they know that it works, as in, it generates money and brand recognition.
I was watching an educational video about studying today and it prompted to ask myself a few questions, such as "Why am I studying? Who am I studying for?" and "How will I ultimately benefit from this?" I have yet to ask myself these questions in recent times in regards for my interest in the Japanese language and heightening my awareness in Heisei works, most of the time a lot of the things I experience are rather spontaneous anyways, but I think I should entertain these questions a bit, privately.
I guess I feel rather sad because even though I live in a age where I can consume any media I want at any time practically with ease, unless I want a physical release, I feel alone because I feel as though there is a lack of community for Heisei Retro enthusiasts like myself. It's really uncomfortable to be overlooked by people who claim they're interested in the same thing as you, and even advertise theirselves in the same veins as you while walking down a ignorant path in their lives..
I want to say that I guess, I might've been someone who might've lived in the wrong generation, lol? I know that saying those words is an easy way to get mocked, but it does capture how I feel. I'm not rejecting myself and my truth, I know that I am a 20 year old woman and whatnot who was a mere child during the peak of the Heisei era (in my humble opinion) but at times I do wish that I was a bit older to experience these things during the peak of the many media I love so dearly. I wish I could be an extra 1% in their statistics in sales for their product, that one more person who gave a like on their commercial for their product, and more while it was new. I get that everyone is busy living their lives and can't necessarily pay attention to the newest and brightest thing that they're interested in all the time, even me, but I partially believe that it's not even worth it when it comes to American things. Just look at how the Powerpuff Girls franchise was defaced and devalued to a "cutesy character design" for K-pop producers to illustrate their members in, but ignore what being a Powerpuff Girl was truly all about. I'm tired of ignorant people in power, I really really am.
I apologize if I struck a negative chord here with what I just wrote, but just remember that I'm just one person on the internet you can easily block or avoid if you don't like what I have to say. There is NO obligation to even engage with anything I write on here at all.
I suppose that's it. I'm going to re-evaluate what I can do to improve my quality of life now...
Ciao.
"The potential health benefits of retro gaming"
16:05
Here's a interesting video I found.
It briefly goes into the psychological aspects of how retro gaming can be beneficial for your mental health.
It reminds me when I wanted to have rooms dedicated to my own retro gaming collection.. that was also during a time of my life when I felt very alone and isolated from my peers.
I kind of already figured out the reasons of how retro gaming can be beneficial that were mentioned in this video though a long time ago, I just let the feelings be instead of internalizing the reasons of why something is.
Anyways, it's a fun watch, and reminds me of this.
I feel like I'm the only American who cares about this game series... I might try to do more about this franchise in the future.
J-Fashion featured in PGSM!
April 6, 2026 | 6:56
Hello!
I feel a bit better now compared to when I was last blogging.
I wanted to show you all (even though I have 1 follower so far lol!) my observation when watching PGSM!
I saw Usagi wearing J-fashion pieces such as Mezzo Piano and Lovers' House!!
Yes, I know that this is a Japanese show but I still feel really happy to notice this!
Usagi had some pretty neat outfits!!
That's all and I could be updating this a bit later!
Mini-Recap of Episode 16 of PGSM + My Personal Thoughts
17:23
Hi everyone, told you all I'd return π
I just finished watching the 16th episode of Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (the live-action version). I had many thoughts about it.
The mini-recap is that Naru feels strongly towards Ami, and the feeling is actually reciprocated, but not in a romantic way, moreso within a negative sense. Ami feels jealous towards Naru and Usagi's friendship and would prefer to be Usagi's only friend, but fortunately Rei (Sailor Mars) snapped Ami out of her depressed downward spiral. She said something very valuable to Ami, which was that Ami doesn't have to stick to Usagi's preferences and overarching ideal of their friendship.
I guess I maybe felt very confused is because I've been grappling with something personal inside.
I feel as though, I don't know how to assert myself in a way that's appropriate for myself. I'm well aware that actions have consequences, and also that nothing is truly harmless in life. There is always a small fee that gets paid..
I always believed in the past that it doesn't matter what strangers or even ex-friends think of me if they perceive me as someone horrible for being rude back towards someone who is hurting me. At times, I feel like it's impossible to please others, so I stopped doing that a long time ago. Even when I was indifferent towards an unsolicited confrontation, people still found reasons to dislike me.
I am practicing methods to deal with conflict more, such as trying my best to be open and understanding to even the cruelest of people who thought it was okay to threaten my peace, but not in a way that leaves me vulnerable. I've been trying to stay true to my authentic self, and further practice honesty towards such sick individuals, even if it may feel like in the moment, it's not satisfying my emotional needs of what I actually would like to say.
It's safe to say I was surprised at Naru's bravery with how she confronts her feelings regarding Ami with Usagi. I am 20 years old, and these characters are around 14. It honestly feels like once you become an adult, you're not allowed to make any type of social mistakes whatsoever, especially if you made an error with someone who has a strong support system.
I believe that people who do have one are really privileged because they have something that can help them emotionally lean back on in times of crisis. I always prioritized the mental over physical security. It's easy for those people with those privileges to abandon you if you make a mistake in their eyes, because they already have found a "home" with those other people, which makes you re-consider why they even wanted you in their life in the first place.
I guess I started to write that because when you're a teenager, everyone is generally more forgiving society-wise on social "mistakes", although I suppose Naru's subtle confrontations towards Ami and Usagi are her instinctual ways of communicating how she feels. I don't really consider Naru's way of communicating a mistake, it just slightly complicates things, and the ending was wrapped up in a neat little bow for both Ami and Naru, but unfortunately not for Usagi.
Mamoru was seen by Usagi with another girl, after she was bringing cookies that SHE baked for HIM from her class. Is Mamoru a player? I guess it might be a lesson to not trust people who are initially cold to you, even if things later warm up? I need to watch more to gather more context.. poor Usagi. She's not annoying at all in this version, too, compared to the animated series that I may or may not restart soon. I plan to watch it in it's entirety after I complete this live-action version. I'm getting through the episodes very quickly!
That's all, thx for reading my thoughts. teehee
Minor Annoyances..
March 31, 2026 | 06:05
Hi.
I just woke up a few moments ago, and I went on Youtube, as that is part of my daily routine, subconsciously at least.
My eyes met a video that seemed very obnoxious to be honest.
It basically went like, "THIS IS THE MOST OBSCURE, RARE, UNDERGROUND LIVE-ACTION SHOW THAT EVER EXISTED!"
Why do people do this? Besides wanting clicks, that is.
It's a nusiance to me because they're projecting their perspective on the viewer that has a lot of faith in them, and are naive to a extent.
It's basically false advertising especially if said media was broadcasted, no matter how many years ago.
I just wish people could look at the facts when it comes to their "obscure" media instead of sensationalizing their underdog status.
I also don't like it when people make big mistakes like this, and they still have a audience at their every word, but I keep seeing this happen a lot recently, so I just chalked it up to realizing a group of people like that aren't worth even examining, they're that gullible for a reason..
Perhaps I am also annoyed because I tried to submit something that was genuinely lost media to the Lost Media Wiki and I feel like they rejected me out of a reason that spouted from pure laziness.
I'm aware of a few lost media instances over my travels, and I can't help but feel agitated that I got kicked to the curb like that..
I'll just try to focus on myself even more.
My First Post
March 30, 2026 | 22:16
Hi everyone, how do you do?
I just watched the fifth act of Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon. However! I'm referring to the live-action adaption of the franchise and not the animated series.
I feel like I've finally found my newest obsession, kind of. I feel comforted by the show's atmosphere and environment. Even though there's danger lurking in almost every episode so far, especially with the hunt for the Illusionary Sliver Crystal, I always have hope and faith reserved for the Sailor Scouts, who are rapidly growing in size one by one.
I believe Ami is the most relatable character. For some reason, I find Usagi an annoying character on her own, but I understood her outlook on life more overall during this live-action adaption. I stopped disliking her as much, and I can only hope when I start to watch the anime, the consistency remains, because I'm sure the anime was reference data for the live-action show.
I am excited to watch more, and the "filler" episodes are really tolerable and pleasant to watch as well :)
Oh. I forgot to introduce myself.
Hai, you can call me Venus. The more I write on here, the more I hope you can understand me more as a person. I don't like listing my favorite things here because that's something you'll start to learn as I share more about myself on here.
Obviously, Heisei Retro is my favorite aesthetic. I was born in Winter 2005, 14 years before the Heisei era concluded. It's still hard for me to describe my unique infatuation with this era, but it's one of the things that brings me peace in my hectic life. It's ok if no one else really understands me. A existence where everyone can understand you is unachievable, although it wouldn't hurt to nudge others to help others understand your true intentions.
It's getting late, it's almost my bedtime.
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Venus Himekawa
